LOL

DEVB3002 take home exam - submitted! eeehoo!~~
weird thing is, i copied and paste (most of the) answers from text book! and turnitin only detects 12% similarity. and that includes the reference and questions!

my pharmacology assignment 1 semester ago - also 12% similarity. and i WROTE THAT MYSELF.

i might as well just copy and paste lor.
LOL

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

hmm, i left a comment on ivanny's exam dates out!!, trying to persuade myself although my exam time table sucks (like BIOL3002 on 10th 2.30pm, DEVB3002 on 12th 11.15am and BIOC3003 on 13th 2.30pm -- the last 2 papas are well-known killer paper).. at least my assignments-submission-due-date-list is somewhat shorter.

then i realise, it's really not just about how long/ short is the list. it's the weightage of each piece of the assignments that matters.

DEVB3002 take home exam due this coming Friday (20%). DEVB3002 literature review due next Friday (30%) -- which means, if i could score this 2 pieces, i will have -ahem- better life for my final exam.
the question here is, IF since the take home exam is really the standard of take-home-exam ie super hard and can't seems to find relevant good resources, and for the assignment, my group mates don't seem to have enough.. chemistry? to keep the work flow going smooth =S
talking about group assignment, i start to miss Mr Satoshi already. an excellent group member i would say.

BIOC3003 literature review (20%, due 24th oct). i think i will continue my last min style of work for this piece of assignment. looked through the calendar and it's like just don't have time (unless i don't sleep). seriously, i admire those who can don't sleep/sleep very little while still able to get their brain functioning. for my case, if i just stay through the night and force myself to work in front of computer, usually (1) i will doze off in front of the computer irregardless how much junk food i eat just to coax myself to stay awake, or (2) the piece of assignment end up really cannot-make-it with typo all around the place, english that doesn't flow, weird grammar, etc.
tried and tested. recall my pharmacology assignment (marks: 19/30). hmphhh.

lastly, intro to research poster (30%) on 17th oct and final report (40%). NOTHING has been done so far for intro to research. sweat.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!
only by finishing all the assignments i'll be able to switch my focus to course work and start revising for exams.

random random

not that i don't want to belive lar, but i think the daily horoscope thingy from Keen Horoscope are bloody accurate loh.

for eg, on 19th Sept, it says:
"Navigating through sabotage
Ignore the pettiness and move forward. Their drama will ultimately favor you. "

(that is the week whereby the drama-yve having all her drama and link me into it. =S so boliao. and i shall not pollute my blog with her nasty words).


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i slept at 2am this morning with EOD assignment around 80% done.
the first sun ray that wakes me up - it's so bright i cant go back to sleep. that was 7am.
i turned around and saw little orange furry ball, starring at me.

*see how u gonna sleep with im starring at u*

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*EOD EOD EOD*

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alright then i was awake. EOD? be it eod bod or eoa. i just hate to do assignments. i mentioned i rather go for exam, didn't i?

(oh well, there is chance that i might wana take this back. though chances are very slim. but must save some 后路).

then i actually start a dumb round of cam-whoring with all the soft toys won from EKKA.

eg sth like that:

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or something like that:

oh well i know lar this is so bo liao.

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i think im so crazy.
i actually feel DOWN after submit my EOD assignment at 2.50pm.
im so pervert.

Statistically...

Statistically...

i vaguely remember that once i did this statistic during the boring Biostatistics class on the frequency i blog (that is, when i was still using multiply for blogging).

and the statistics showed that it was during exams/ assignments submission periods that marked the peak of my blogging frequency.

and i guess that still holds true! lol..

how many more assignments before i can truly enjoy mid-sem break? i wouldnt even dare to count!

back to EOD assignment. ciao!

ohmygod...

...how did it get to the-twenty-something of September in just a blink??

"terlajak kata tak boleh undur"

ok lar i know it's a bit late but i dont follow news happened back in malaysia/singapore mar.. haha paisei..

so, this Bukit Bendera Umno chief Datuk Ahmad Ismail (dunno who exactly) had said something nasty to the Chinese community. (no need to search for that lar). anyway my personal view is that since it was the merdeka month and thus racist remark as such shouldnt have been made..and i somewhat think that Tun Mahathir's blog (see here) is somewhat not that appropriate (some statements are wrong eg #9 coz im so sure wee meng chee apologized.. and also he isnt even -ahem- pemimpin.. anyway let's not side track). i'm somewhat can't help but think Tun Mahathir is not happy with Pak Lah's performance, but i wonder if it ever occur to him that it is exactly his own styles of governing that lead to the -ahem- politic situation now in Malaysia (eg the Anwar case). My personnal view is that there should not be ONE single leader that lead tooooooooo long. hahaa =X And in this incident, i personally think that he shouldnt have to publish such post.. it was like add oil to the burning fire.. a bit dumb.. and i somewhat think he is trying to create another round of racist issue and interfere with the politics.. haiz. i somewhat think probably he is too free after retirement..

anyway my persoanal point of view is that it is the person who responsible should apologize, not the PM/party. he is the leader and he should have those critical thinking skill and justify what should be said and what should not. being insensitive is the one main thing that some of the leaders always intentionally or unintentionally do, creating rounds and rounds and chaos.. in fact, i think they are having fun out of it -.-"

im not sure but i think the more i explore other countries (whether physically or just discussing with other people from other countries i met), (and uncontrollably compare that to my own country), the more i think things could be better since we are self-claim we are 'berbilang kaum' (which means multi racial). races aside, we are all malaysian. how i wish it somewhat turn into a better place to live in (politically and economically peace and harmony), as oppse for most of my friends say "wah u in sg/aussie now?? dont come back lar! malaysia no hope ald!"

which is like so sad can? after all it is the place where my darah tumpah-ed. even if im in sg/aussie, i still dunno how to sing their national songs ok!


p/s* i must again emphasize that all the statements in this post are based on MY OWN PERSONAL VIEW (as u can see there is a lot of "somewhat" and "personally"). u could have different opinion, that's fine. i'm very into human rights one ;) but dun sue me lar. im poor student who, if u sue me, i'll sure lose the law suit coz i got no $ to hire lawyer! lolx

p/p/s* anything written in here don't necessarily represent what i in the future. hmm, yea. that's it.

我的月亮天蠍日

情緒：尊嚴很受傷的日子, 很沒章法的兩天半。


事件：像聽到人家形容我的某個行為很像我很討厭的个性，當場聽到害我覺得很受辱而介意得不得了，想窮究到底哪裡像而更狼狽不堪。又有一次是我跟人聊天，談到一個曾經欺負過我的人，我的內心當然是滿腹委屈，但不知情的朋友居然說那個人是好人這種話，聽得我又開始不舒服，若他是好人，那我是什麼呢？活該嗎？反正，這真是很挑戰自我、黑暗面充斥的。

i finally insert a chat box in this blog.
the html stuff to insert a chat box is still quite an easy stuff for me.
although i still dunno how to add the title and allow comment thingy..
bleh.

quite a lot of things happened recently. a bit complicated to blog it down 'coz it involves the degree of details which is hard to justify. somemore all parties i know one. tsk tsk. what de. i said i wana be low profile le.

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din manage to do anything at all for THE SECOND DAY already =( so unproductive. i hate. all because i spend too much time thinking abt the incidence i mentioned above. stupid lar. not like got any kind of resolution.

and its f***ing NONE OF MY BUSINESS except i know all of the people that involved!

so? no 'SO' lar. to quote ~ju's Stupid Brain. I want a new one! I also want a new one! one that is a little more self-centred *a-hem* and dont-care-too-much-dont-think-too-much abt what's not your concern.

tsk tsk. i want a new brain also.

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since i got no mood for study and assignment, i went to lab more often and do research hahaa.
but when back home can do what? i also dunno...
end up read news and read blog only. hahaa.
aiyo. other people's story again.
*dun be influnced dun be influenced dun be influenced*
**else slap slap slap slap slapppppp!!**

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I think the main reason to my grouchiness these days, besides the fact that my brains are fried, is that I am losing faith.
I used to be so hopeful. Hopeful of people, hopeful of friends, hopeful of relationships, hopeful of the good of people.

I stopped being so.

Someday, I wish the hope will come back to me. Yet I am wary that all the disappointments being hopeful might bring.

from ScarletTing's Out of My Mind

okie, i'm not alone. lolx.

i literally shut off blogger (my own) and blogspot/livej0urnal/xanga (friends) and facebook and even MSN so that i can put 100% concentration in to my MolGene mid-sem.

(okay, din manage to achieve 100% 'coz for me there is always SLEEP as one of my priorities.)

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molgene mid-sem is over.

well, at least i know how to do most of the question.

the key word here is, most. hahaa

whatever the result is, i'm glad one is down =]

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i went home with sore + sleepy eyes @.@

post-exam effect that is gonna take weeks to recuperate. hmph.

ha. wana catch some sleep but my housemate keeps bugging me abt some of her thought on other friends failing module, etc.

not that i'm not interested (for i have always been kay-poh), but i realize she will really bug me with the same topic if i don't appear to be occupied with work.

so i on my laptop and write this blog! lolx. hahaa. no link hor?

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went to facebook just now and realize my maxthon browser blocks facebook 'coz it constantly detects some errors =S brilliant. so who are those wei hong or alan chan that added me??

hmm, in case u wonder, facebook send ppl whole lot of notification to your e-mail inbox. okay, those option thingy can be edited. but i dunno how can? go ahead laugh laugh laugh all the way u want.

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this is hilarious: (taken from Zhang Ying's blog)

A conversation between “wood wood” BF & “gentle at heart” GF …

(international phone call)

BF: Hello

GF: U idiot! U gave me the wrong number… Why did u add a 0 in front of the 9? I called twice and couldn’t get through and I thought the uncle bluff me, actually this card cannot call… I even called the enquiry hotline and asked for the country code, then stupidly asked is it common to have a 0 before the 9 for handphone numbers in… And luckily ur intelligent GF went by my instinct and decided that there shouldn’t be a 0 before the 9, and finally got through… *blah blah blah*

BF: *SUPER taken back* Huh, who’s that?

GF: Eh u are… right? (oops can’t be called wrong number right…)

BF: Ya… *still in a daze*

GF: U dunno who I am? I’m ur GF lah.

BF: Why did u start scolding me once u got through, this is overseas call leh…

GF: Ya and u thought ur GF misses u so much, so definitely be very gentle when she calls u right? But I’m really so angry. U gave me a wrong number lor… *went on & on*

BF: *bo bian break into laughter* Hey, I want a refund. I thought I got a gentle GF.

GF: There’s no contract, ha…

(conversation finally became more “normal” after that)

friend iris said, cannot keep looking at such things. will make u wana fall in love blindly one.

lolx.

Love at a distance.

i realize i will need to have really enough sleep before i go to lab.

'coz i were to work with no one else but Tam.

i think our working style and attitude clash BIG time.

and if i didnt have enough sleep, i'll become very grumpy.

and when im very grumpy and he keeps giving me those hell-nvm-i'll-do-it-slowly and oh-i-got-no-coursework-no-assignment-due looks, i really have the urge to.....

BASH HIM UP!

&%^*&$^(&^$()^$@#^*^()*

i hope this night mare ends soon.

It's kindda ironic that after so many opinion seeked/ coin flipping/ "probability tests", you still decide on otherwise.

The Traveller's Gift

One of the NY Times Bestseller. (Okay, it very much depends on the reader, since most of the book out there will have the tag XXX bestseller thingy).

But i truly like this book. =)

When i grabbed it off from shelf back then, the word that caught my eyes was "traveller". Oh well, i shall admit, I'VE BEEN WANTED TO GO ON TRAVEL DURING WINTER BREAK. Oh well, that didnt happen. Oh well, at least for David Ponder, his journey was entertaining (and meaningful) enough that i finished reading the book in 1 day.

I shall not describe too much on how well is the plot and how captivating the story line are. (okay okay, my vocab sucks-lah!)

I would rather re-read the book again! Hahahaa.

See related.

单身潜逃

Been really moody lately despite it's just the second week of school starts.

And Penny's songs have been my remedy for that moody feeling. Music therapy? heh.


戴佩妮 单身潜逃
PS:我想我真的忘了,然而我不够坚强

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装 不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷这点我善于的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷这点我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

Listen it HERE.

Continuation from the previous entry.

And I like this even more.



"Whatis his race?"
"What is race?"
"Race is race car lar"

LOL! race car!
How I wish our people from our country are more unite irregardless of race.

It's gonna be our 51st birthday soon on 31st Aug =)
Can't wait for another nice ad for the celebration!

this is so awww....

i've gone through the induction course and hua-lah, i can start my project now. =)

although it's a 3-hour-so-damn-boring-oh-i-know-where-is-the-fire-extinguisher-and-the-first-aid-box-etc kindda 'course'.

i'm glad it's over.

to miss za bo (u know who u are)

happy birthday.

i have to made it really low profile. for both of us are those kind of people who dont like to be reminded abt our own birthday.

u know me that well also that u juz act blur on my bday. waahahaa. i appreciate that, really.

but i cant bring myself to act blur, ya know?! i miss talking to u and have mudpie together at nydc holland vi after midnight!

be happy ok. my sincere wish. to you.

yes. this is the like very first post that i'm gonna write abt my feeling after so long. been lazy and always dun-feel-like-writing mood predominating.

it really feels good coz after so long, when u called someone, and from the 'hello', they know it's you right away. i meean, after so long never talk on phone. like several months? oh well, probably it's not that long for some. but for me, yeah, i do think it's really very long already to count.

i miss all of u, dear friend and family. you are like an angel to me.

i really feel home sick these few days. i really do.

My friend ask me to blog abt my winter holiday, which i'm completely lazy abt it.

In a nutshell, i eat
and eaT
and eAT
and EAT

but nar, not like i've gained a lot of weight. i think i'm still quite light lifted except now i have some fatty acid plus triglycerides ard my waist. i think i will have a whole summer to burn that away. for now, i think it's more important to keep some- it's 6 deg minimum today, ya know!

oh well, that is procrastinate. i know. juz finding excuse-lah, it's holiday ok?

no pic. sorry. too lazy.

jdore

haiz

there's been some times since i read FF's blog. i like her blog 'coz most of the time it's juz so close to one's heart. gal's i mean.

for example, this one:

friendships and trust

it's juz so true.

私の趣味は映画を見ることです。最近急がしですから、何も映画は見ません。私は日本語の映画を見たことがありますが、あまり分かりませんでした。いつも友達と映画を見に行きます。一人だと映画は見に行きません。映画館の中で、大きい声で話してはいけません。煙草も吸ってはいけません。

今、学校の休みですから、多い映画はあります。私はドラエモンの映画を見るつもりです。今度の日曜日はこの映画を見られると思うっています。

it's been sometimes i read wan's blog. i do think her blog is better than xiaxue's coz hers at least got content.

recent blog that i like the most:

"reason"


especially the last sentence where she highlighted:-

在意的人就輸啦~~~~

how true.

I went cycling last Sunday which I supposed to work at the first place, but at the second, not anymore. =)

And I bump into taf xfj and her beau at ECP. How small the world can be, anyone?

Speaking about working out, (I suppose cycling count), I browse through internet and saw this:


10 Reasons to Hop to It:-
1. Burns up to 1,000 calories per hour.
2. Tones your entire body -- arms, legs, trunk, and back.
3. Is easy to learn (master’s degree in Pilates not required).
4. Improves your game, whether you golf, swim, ski, or play tennis.
5. Is totally cheap (ropes can start at $3.99) and portable (a 4-foot by 6-foot area is all you need).
6. Looks cool . . . check out those boxers at the gym who know what they’re doing.
7. Can be a solo or group workout.
8. Is gender neutral.
9. Is family friendly. Give your kids a rope, too!
10. Can be a blast. Make up some jump rope tricks, and have fun with it.

from http://www.realage.com/news_features/tip.aspx?v=1&cid=18442

Time to hop!!

ゆうベたくさんねたのに、ねむいですね！

sometimes i cant help but think that they are so bias =/
just because they think that she might leave anytime without telling.
maybe i shouldn't have consult tplqfoh abt mrs koh's offer.i should have just accept mrs koh's offer and render resignation. then they'll know it's not just zwppoof ubo that MIGHT leave.

somemore hor, i'm just an JMT hor, which according to tfmjob who is an MT who address herself as small fry, i realise i'm the tiny tiny fry who no one will appreciate your effort.
and of course lar, super easily replacable.
and the reason tplqfoh sounded that they need you so much, is simply because they don't have the luxury of time to train new staff.

nothing to do with appreciation.


xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

i'm glad that i haven go to HR and sign the renewal-contract thingy.
after all that have happened, it strucks me that the reason i can easily feel upset abt other people said, it's simply because i care too much.
and from today onwards, i shall care less. it doesn't matter anymore.and abt the contract, i shall think it over again. after all, it's not a bad thing to switch environment even if it's just for like.. 3 months?
yes. to work under mrs koh is surely nice =) the only bad thing i can think abt the whole thing is that, my bonus would be gone if i leave now!

xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

This is indeed upsetting.
i shall care less and talk less and just do my own job.
i shall care less and talk less.
i shall care less.

xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

i still went to hr and sign the contract.
to me, the attraction of $$ (as in bonus at year end) is still greater.
i hate myself for that. (oh well, don't have to pretend to be 'qing gao', whether i'm going for study or not next year, the >1month bonus is super attractive, okay?)

My fav photo from the Teluk Ramunia trip on early Aug.

i like za bo's nick on the msn which goes like this:

心很空，天很大，云很重，
我很孤单，却赶不走。

i hope she's fine.

i once read this article by one CEO of a company out there on the topic how will they relate this 2 issues- employee haveing need to work OT and their efficiency.

i figured most employers (espcially Singaporean boss) think that if his staff work a lot of OT (irregardless whether is paid OT or otherwise), that means that the staff is actually very hardworking and dilligent and committed to his work.

but i beg to be differ. it could show that your staff is 'committed' in one way, but in another, it means there is something very wrong with his efficiency that he needs to work OT.

of coz if the office/lab is short-handed, different issue will be addressed.

but sadly, most of the employer still regards their work-most-OT staff as the most diligent staff, and therefore, better performance appraisal and higher salary increment, etc etc.

hmph.

i met up with laimun some weeks ago and before we split our way going home she made a comment that i look like i'm attached.

my colleagues used to think i'm steady with my beau ever since my sista had a bouquet of flower send to my lab on V-day.

even my dad thinks that i went home late nowadays because i went out pak-toh.

ohmygod. but i'm not. been busy. with work and jap class stuff and blah blah. but not relationship. definitely.

so, guy who wants to know me, just come forward and say hi. pls do not assume that i'm attached or what. like wat laimun said,
"you juz have the kuan4 as if u are attached."

Happy Birthday to me. For the 23rd times.



I muz say I feel touched when friends started to sms me right after midnight. Not to mention weiming who happened to have the same DOB as me, where he actually called and do the count-down with me.

Though I was super-duper tired. Plus have had to work the next day. WHOLE day. Heck.

Thanks my mom for bringing me to this world. Where love and warmth do exist- if you watch careful enough. and my dad. and my little sis and big sis and little bro. love ya'all!!! lot!!! miz ya'all sOOooooOOO much.

khayhong, i think u muz try harder? I'm, too, not sure why and what am i avoiding. jeremy and sim-kor and tesheng and iris and andrew madj and chongkok and denise and lc and mh and chong and kiansoon and za bo and kahchun and blah blah blah...(sorry if i forgot).. well, thanks for remembering. Guess the friendster thingy does help a lot huh? oh yea and the fight-global-warming thingy.. that's why THIS year more ppl actually rem?? lolx.

07/07/07. What's the big deal? I turn older 1 year on this day. Darn.

to ah-jia:

we all felt the same. juz that i wish it wont really happen.

sharing this thought.

i cant stop but think this 'new' colleague of mine hates me. where i seriously don't think i have done anything nasty to her. not like i'm those type of person.

i shall call this 'new' colleague of mine zwnnoof. (well i have my way to create codes for all the frens/ colleague =) if u are smart enough, u shud be able to de-code it. it's a very common way for de-coding though.)

well, this zwnnoof is 'new', simply bcoz she was already worked there when i joined the company 1 year ago- only that she left short after that to persue her degreee overseas. and one year later, da-tah, there she back. here.

we dont really have a lot of interaction in anyway. though we are colleagues and our work flow sort of need conversation with each other. and this time round when she's back, she somehow developed the 'writing notes' or pasting 'post-it' if she has to tell me something. well for most ppl who are viewing this might be thinking this is nothing. but i juz dun get it, why bother to write notes when u can juz tell the person face to face? this is reason #1 why i think she hates me.

reason #2. it's not like i'm like so cool and face black everyday, though i always say i'm a very LP (ie low profile) person. i did try to talk to her. ask her open question (ie those question whereby the answer is anything more than yes/ no). but somehow the response i get back is cold. the, i really got nothing to say liao.

reason #3: when u reach/leave ur office, u naturally will greet ur colleagues morning/bye. but, she never greet me. and for my case, even if i greet her, the response is like... so reluctant! damn it. this kind of 'cold shower' thing will really spoil ur whole day ya know.

well there are plenty more reason why i think she hates me. and i dowan to talk abt it anymore else i'll juz cry. coz i feel im so pity with nothing i did is wrong or offended her in anyway. if thing doesnt turn out better in 1 month time, i think i shud seriously thinking abt changing job or juz go off study. it might seems silly, but i juz cant tolerate the idea having need to work with someone who hates u, so openly, and yet, u got no other option coz the lab is so small and all the processes is linked up and no chance u can get away doing everything by ur own without need to cooperate with ur colleague.

oh i recalled, i think i once said very very loud that i think she's pretty. i tot that suppose to be a compliment? bo bian if she got offended lah. for my case it's almost impossible to get such compliment lo. a-hem. tmd lo.

tmd tmd tmd...

i'm sorry but im super pms-sy today.
pls leave me alone.

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luckily i found sth which cheer me up
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/cwwany

Teaching my colleague how to use blogger... heheh

Am bore.

Diamonds are girls' best friend?

BLOOD DIAMOND IS BLOOOOOOOOOODY NICE.

serious. SERIOUS.
A few years ago, I came to a conclusion that movies based on true story are really interesting. And it makes me think a lot.
A LOT.
Blood Diamond gave me the same after effect.

And Leonardo DiCaprio- He really puts in lot of effort. for example the accent that African have.

http://www.realdiamondfacts.org/
The real story about the dard side of the diamond industry.
Go see go see.

I'm seriously thinking twice (make it thrice) about wanting a diamond ring.
Afterall, one's arm worth more than a few thousands.

Oh my god this is sOoOooo adorable.

(Click on the picture to see)

But I got the mail from my married colleague. She's going on honey-moon coming month.

Why, my?! What the heck you are thinking huh?

My free Astrocenter Weekly Horoscope send to me on Dec24 says:
"New Year's Eve is not as dynamic as it has been in other years. You may notice that you just don't have the energy to go out and celebrate ringing in 2007 and may find it easier and more relaxing to watch a movie or see on all on TV. "

I read this on Jan3, 2007. And guess what, I sleep in during New Year. I just don't have the energy to go out and squeeze with people. Think Christmas took too much of my energy away.

While everyone is writing their 2007 New Year resolution, I decided to write my Pig Year CNY Resolution on Feb 17.

Who knows? It might bring better luck in accomplishing the goals on the list. =)

i hope they know what's their destiny, to fly with the wind, and to root at another place.

A lot of things come into my mind recently.
About the future, the career path, etc etc.
Of course i've been saying that no point plan for the LONG future, as in, u might not even know if u are still on earth by then.

My supervisor commented that i should have knw what i really like at my age of 22 (?!), on top of i already have working experience.
It's been bothering me. Coz as the matter of fact, i still cant be sure what i really really like to do.
Hb said if you can visualize yourself doing something 20 years down the road, most probabaly you like that job.

But i think i'm a bit "one-kind". Coz most of the time, even if i DISLIKE something, i can still do it without much problem. i mean dislike.
So at the end, i cant tell what i really hate/dislike to do.
I always have the "oh, come what may" thought.

Had a gathering with my poly-classmate last weekend. And someone said that he is not going to do lab job in any means.
But later, he said he wanted to do some scintific research job.
Correct me if i'm wrong, but i thought that would be laboratory-related as well?

Oh well, i'm too far away from my topic.
I dun understand, my mind just cant concentrate lately. In better word, it's multi-tasking. (A-hem, maybe it's because my job here require people to be multi-tasked so you can go back home on-time.)
And now, not just my wet-bench skills, even my mind works TOO wonder that it always wanders here and there. And i dont quite catch it most of the time.

I read my friend's blog and i thought at some point of time i pity her. But now i dont anymore. At least she knows what she really likes. And what she wana do. The only problem she has is lack of funding. And with that she can curse and swear about the family she's born into- which i dont quite agree with that.
But i just keep quiet. i dont really like her. i dont deny that. and neither do i need to pretend that i actually dont not-like her. i just dun like her attitute to push the downsides she's facing to the family, or to her classmates, or to her friends, or to anyone around her who, according to her, to unfriendly and unwilling to help.
But others got no obligations to help you. And, what makes you things it's just YOU who need help?

So what do you really like? Is the thing you doing now the kind of life you wana live for the next 20 years?
Hb said, when you are young, you should just take the leap.
But there's so much constraints in life.
Financial- the big problem.
And regret?
And the main problem, leap to where??
I guess that's why i lack the courage to just go for it? To just take the leap.
I hate myself for that. I'm such a coward.

oh my god.

someone from my primary class posted our P6 cloass photo online.

all of us were so cute then. hahaa~

My all-time favourite =)

THE LITTLE PRINCE

"TO LEON WERTH

I ask the indulgence of the children who may read this book for dedicating it to a grown-up. I have a serious reason: he is the best friend I have in the world. I have another reason: this grown-up understands everything, even books about children. I have a third reason: he lives in France where he is hungry and cold. He needs cheering up. If all these reasons are not enough, I will dedicate the book to the child from whom this grown-up grew. All grown-ups were once children--although few of them remember it. And so I correct my dedication:

TO LEON WERTH

WHEN HE WAS A LITTLE BOY"

written and illustrated by

Antoine de Saint Exup้ry

OH no i'm so tired.

How i wish i can juz sleep without having the alarm clock on.

i am sure you heard about this before: a hungry man is an angry man.

full and satisfied make me happy. despite the fact that i might need to run for another 2.4km to burn away the energy i consumed.

dun care lar. eat first. worry later -grinz-

**MISSION**

I'm on a search-and-destroy mission. I want to stamp out anything boring, suffy and tedious. Bless me k =)

I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE I HATE EATING ALONE!!!

I JUST REALLY HATE EATING ALONE.

To my Boss:

Do you think you can spare me 2 months in which I can go and do something different? Temp job maybe? And it'll be unpaid leave?

Can I can I??

*desperate for some changes mode*
*bore*

When can I finish packing my room?

Yeah, you saw it right. Pack my room.

Even my room ain't THAT big, I'll still need to "break" it into portions get my gear starts!

Hmph. But it always got started in a I-WILL-FINISH-EVERYTHING today, and somewhat, ended up someway whereby those "not-too-sure-what-to-do-with-it" things lying around the extra space beside my writing table.

How extra can... So much of "packing room".

Damn, when can I finish packing my room?

And at the meantime, no visitors. Thanks ;)

Feeling drained..

I desperately need to recharge my 'creative and spritual batteries'.

Fresh stimulation, anyone?

Awww so sweet...

My colleague MaHB passed me the poster of Wilber Pan this morning -- the very first moment when I stepped into Cyto lab. Aww I reckon that as a very very sweet thing to do to your friend?? Yeah I always know to be a friend for HB is better than to be her colleague. But I'm sure things will get better huh?

I think I'll be like super broke this month =( Wanteed to get Christina's "Back to Basics" and Penny Dai's latest album. And I had way toooooo many goodies this week =p Gain a lot more inches I think. Oh dare not to look at the reality showed on the weighing-balance.

Self-denying mode. Hahaha.

A trip too short

I'm back from my KL/ Penang trip.

The trip was nice, except the part that having need to take so long the travel time =(

If only we can stay there for a few more there, then only can balance up the travel time and the playing time I guess? Hee.

Photo coming up soon.

some thoughts that strike..

When I don't blog or post anything down HERE, it doesn't mean that my life is so bore I got nothing to blog about.

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Had a long conversation with YShin yesterday at Starbucks HV. Cosy nice little conversation. Blend, but always close to one's heart. Despite the fact that she might be out of love anytime soon =( Hope she'll get over it soon.

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TV pragrammes nowadays just sucks. And there ain't any nice movies around recently. I just can figure out why my colleagues always go back home right after work 'coz there are 'nice programmes' at night. Erm. Maybe? But for all the time I'm not someone who always get attached to what showed on TV.

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I'm crazily over Wilber Pan now. It's funny 'coz I think... Erm yea right.. I was thinking if I'm too old for that. After all he's only 26, which mean he's only slightly older than me. Ha. My colleague CMaHB said she just don't understand this. Actually neither do I. I just think that when he rap he gets real cool like Sisqo? -grinz- I will say I'm crazy, 'coz for a ngiau-kia like me, I actually spent around 15 bucks for cab, which gets me to NTU just to see Pan Weibo. Hahahaa-- I guess people, erm, my colleagues especially, already get bore with my 'cheer' of "PAN WEI BO HEN SHUAI!!!" Wahaha-- Sometimes you need to shout out things that you thought at the mean time you're actually destressing? Hahaha sound a bit irrational. Well I'm just making up story =p

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I bump into my ex-colleague last time when I was part-timing at Sushi Tei HV. My ex-classmate KTehBJ is getting marry soon. With another ex-colleague of mine. Going to ROM for registration next month I heard? I hope I won't get the invitation too last minute or else I won't to able to fork out sum of money for the ang pow? Oh well, I might not be getting any invitaion at all. It's a shot-gun wedding. Less people, less explanation. At the mean time, I just pretend I never heard anything.

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Technically, I just can't transfer files from my mobile to my com. All the photos taken with the phone remain in the phone memory, while those songs I download from the internet remain in com. It still despairs me a lot when I think about the laptop those bloddy f***er took/stole/whatever-shit-you-call. So now I had to bear with this 8-year old com. Oh well, at least I can use it to log on to internet and do simple blogging, provided I'm patient enough to wait for one page load at one time. -Patience testing in progress- How damn it.

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I went for JTanKS birthday chalet just now. I guess for most of the people getting into adulthood is something quite memorable. I don't deny that but again I also don't understand why people just love to have chalet and chalet all the times when they birthday? I figure out 'coz most of the Singaporean family won't manage to have party/celebration at own home 'coz it's either too small or it'll be too troublesome to have all the clean-up after the guests leave. And again 'coz Singapore it's too small, this kind of chalet thing is always being held at particular place like Downtown East or Pasir Ris chalet. East coast is somewhat relatively inaccessible. For this month alone, I went for Downtown East, twice. Please, think of some other places can?

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I guess I would be out of job 10 years down the road if I do stick with Cyto. There is this Dr Swaroop (oops, not sure if I got the spelling correct) came and gave some talks on the new technique in which laboratories in States are using now, the CGH arry to detect addition and deletion of genes, and the correlation of it to diseases, mostly those inherited one, especially when it involves microdeletion in which it's sometimes to hard to be detected by the convention karyotyping means. While technology in States developing fast, we in Singapore one don't even manage to have IFISH done. How ironic. Oh well, people will start telling you "We are in Singapore the population is small" Oh well oh well.

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Whether is to continue study or not really depends on myself. Am I ready? A part-time one or a full-time one? To stay in SG or do it at some other countries like Aussie or NZ? If is to do in other countries, do I have enough 'reserve'?
I will continue study for sure. But it does look like I'm really not ready. Yet.

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I'm listening to Wilber latest album now. Track #3 is making me feels like falling in love again. Though I'm not too sure if I'm up for it. =) Will see.

From the courtesy of -nats- =)

我是"爱"而不是"喜欢"... 为什么？


当我站在你的面前,心跳会加速；
当和你四目交投,会害羞；
当和你对话,会觉得难以启齿； 而不能畅所欲言.
当你哭,我会陪你一起哭； 却不会技巧地安慰你.

喜欢，是一种心情 ; 爱，是一种感情.
喜欢，是一种直觉 ; 爱，是一种感觉.
喜欢，可以停止 ; 爱，没有休止 .
喜欢一个人，特别自然 ; 爱一个人，特别坦然 .
喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起 ; 爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起 .
喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执 ; 爱一个人，不停的为他付出 .
喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己 ; 爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他 .
喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑 ; 爱一个人，总是为他而哭 .
喜欢，是值得 ; 爱，是执着.
喜欢就是喜欢，很简单 ; 爱就是爱，很复杂.
喜欢你，却不一定爱你 ; 爱你，就一定很喜欢你 .

You and Your Boss: The Subtle Differences

From http://theenglishonline.com

If you take a long time, you're slow.

But if your boss takes a long time, he's thorough.

If you don't do it, you're lazy.

But if your boss doesn't do it, he's too busy.

If you make a mistake, you're a goober.

But if your boss makes a mistake, he's 'only human'.

If you take a stand, you're being bull-headed.

But if your boss does it, he's being firm.

If you overlooked a rule of etiquette, you're rude.

But if your boss skips a few fule, he's being original.

If you do something without being told, you're stepping your authority.

But if your boss does the same thing, he's taking initiative.

If you're on a day off sick, you're 'always' sick.

But if your boss is a day off sick, he must be very sick.

If you're out of the office, you're wondering around.

But if your boss is out of the office, he's on business.

If you apply for leave, you must be going on interview.

But if your boss applies leave, it's because he's overworked.

But it doesn't really apply to my job, which is good I guess? ;)

StRRRRRRess

I think i feel bloodie stress now. This is so NOT me. Damn.

Stress psycologically. But physically, i'm doing just well. Oh shitty so damn contradicting.

I need my stress reduction kit. Or else i might stay awake for the whole night. -OMG- =/

When is the last time I update this blog? I can't even remember!

Photo at Andrew's birthday party. He dances real well. Ohh.....

IMEI don't help

My sister just told me the Motorola shop and Maxis (the telco provider) told her that there's nothing they can do about her lost cell phone, even if she has the IMEI number.

Maxis said it will jam their networking if they try to block the phone.

I'm surprise. I thought people always stress on the importance of noting down your IMEI number in case you lost your phone? So the truth is, nothing can really be done anyway.

Ridiculous.

鱼

我们在时间的河里，游了好久好久，有时候游累了想要上岸休息，但紧凑的生活，却让我们必须一直沉溺。或者我们只能学学水里的鱼儿，偶尔游到水面透气……

My home had a break-in last night. Which caught us totally unprepared. Chaotic.

Laptop, over-the-generations-jewelry, cell phone (which my sister left it at home unintentionally. And it’s brand new! It’s barely 1 month old, okay?), monthly expenses which my dad gave my mom (around RM1500), and those money I gave my mom and she never exchange them for RM, around SGD 1500 as well.

So in total the loss is about 10K in RM.

Most people who I told this incident to convince me that it’s fortunate as no one’s at home when intruder break in. And some told me life goes on with or without any ‘dui-ness’ feeling. It’s not like I feel like grumble or so about this misfortunate. But I just can’t bring myself to agree with the “life must go on” concept. To me it sounds the same as let the criminals continue with the crimes since people, the tax-payers, can only prevent, and pray hard that misfortunate won’t befall on them. Yes. Most of the citizens in JB town had already cease to pin their hope on the efficiency of police force. The expectation here is not so much as wanting to see the police at every corner. It is the action that they make that counts. I am thinking, you do know that that is where taxes go to don’t ya?

Break-in and snatch thieves are way too commonly seen nowadays in JB town. I hope some one pretty important and influential start doing something about it. And I hope it’s sooner rather than later.


Sidetalk: The reason why I’m pretty mad about this whole incident is that there is this Indian family who lives behind my house, who their home was intruded and robbed as well, just 2 days ago before us. It’s not like we didn’t lock our doors and windows before we went out. But those fuckers are just able to find their way in – like in this case, break the window and slowly cut down those decorating metal at the other side of the window. So much of having extra locks and latches at your doors huh? Why not a window-less house next time? Hmph.

The extra mile?

I watched "Shoot 2" (the repeated one on 12 midnight) just now. Despite the fact I do dislike Cai ShenJiang and Huang MingDe quite a lot nowadays. Then why? It’s because of the topic for this time round: Service industry.

This topic has been brought into discussion for N times already by medias – the papers, talk show etc. But my point? Singaporeans are basically rude bunch. Ok, we are not as bad as some other Asian countries. But we are nowhere near being polite and gracious either - which brings me to my real point. The service industry sucks because the people providing the lousy services are also the same rude customers receiving it. It amuses me to see our media and press trying so hard to segregate the two. Or some other time, the “Customer’s always right” attitude that customers hold just make the service person doesn’t feel like providing the best of his/her service.
They are just doing their JOB. Go to the extra miles? I guess it needs to be get started by educating the customers first?

Was doing G-banding just now and Dr Tan came in. Seeing me taking GLASS slides from the oven of 70 degree Celcius, she asked:

"Wah baking cookies ar?"

Me (try hard not to roll my eyes): -speechless-
(short talk: I don't think the temperature is high enough even to bake those edible cookies though)

Wonder why is the good mood Dr Tan's having today.

=p

I decided to skip work today when i woke up at 6.30am (which is 1 hour earlier than usual) today. =p

Don't think I'd be able to practice personal hygiene and safety with glove on my hand but a runny-nose that much more like a spoilt water tap that keeps running?

Better off slacking at home huh?
Orh okie correction- REST at home.

Happy resting (slacking). -smirk-

I keep having this ‘misconception’ whereby I thought today is Friday. Weird enough huh. Not that I long for weekend 'coz I’M ON DUTY FOR THIS COMING SATURDAY.

I watched “Lu Guang Sen Lin” on Channel U. That William is very hairy indeed.

Then it’s the talk show “Shoot-2”. For the first time I dislike Quan-YiFeng’s show. Or rather, I dislike the guests they have in that show.

For those who don’t know, my lab’s people listen to U-FM 100.3 EVERY DAY. It’s makes me feel very auntie. Damn.
And each morning, being sleepy and not in very good mood, I have to listen to the voice and the arguing of Cai-ShenJiang and others.
And if I’m doing G-banding, it’s only making my mood from ‘not very good’ to ‘very bad’.

As for today, I seriously think that I had more than enough of their view and thought on the morning on.. erm.
-Sorry I can’t recall what is their topic this morning at all- And night, worse. Have to see his and his partner’s faces somemore.

It’s not that I don’t respect elders. –a-hem- But c’mon la! Give me a break, couldn’t you?

It’s raining almost whole day today. Mood spoilt — especially if you are trapped inside office/lab.
I miss my bed already.

The biography of a smashed snail

Halalala~~ rainy day.. –yawn- I love it, always.
With my home on my back, I guess now is the best time to have a little stroll around. Wont’ have to see the always-scorching-hot sun. =) I’m just simply love it.

Sniff! Sniff the air! It’s fresh! It’s moist! The smell of rain is just so nice!
Maybe I should just go and find Ah-Huey at the next neighborhood. She might long to see me. =p

Crawl crawl crawl. Damn, I guess I’m panting already. Guess you guys seen a dog pants. But a snail?
I guess all is worth it when it comes to Ah-Huey.
Oh back up back up back up!!!

Eh! The thought of Ah-Huey makes you too high is it??? You are almost at the centre of the walkway! Beware of feet beware of feet!!

-trying hard to crawl towards side way-

Crawl crawl. Oops.. hoo escape once.. crawl crawl.. Thank God escaped another one.. Guess I’ll be quite safe soon..crawl crawl crawl..

Uh-huh..big (foot) shadow! Hey human I’m here I’m here can see me? Heyyyy---
-clarkkkk- Ouch... I.. I think my home… my home… cracked. Or still craking? Into pieces.

I think.. I think my blood’s leaking. It’s leaking…
I’m done for… I’m done for..
I think I saw Ah-Huey before I close my eyes.


In memory of the smashed snail I saw on my way back home.
*bore*

Amazing cycle

I was talking to my colleague SP about this scene in X-Man III, in which Jean (the so-called Grade 5 mutant) have power over almost all other mutants (including Magneto for some forces she possesses), Magneto have power over Wolverine, but, at the end of the day, Wolverine has power over Jean for he can self-healed.

So, at the end of the day, it’s a cycle! =) I like that thought.

Some professor said before no single virus can destroy everything on earth. Okay except it is genetically modified in a way that it becomes a biological weapon.

If there are people able to generate antibodies against Hepatitis B, SARS, etc, I believe there would be people able to generate immunity against H5N1 virus as well.

Every living creature has its own amazed way to carry on living. Don’t belittle that.

Gossip...

.. is the last refuge of people who have no life.....

movie date

I almost couldn’t remember the last movie I watched in the theater.

Oh yeah, it’s “Perhaps Love” staring Takeshi Kaneshiro and Jacky Cheung and Zhou Xun and Ji Jin Hee by the Director Peter Ho-Sun Chan.

Did that tell you how long ago it was?

Anyone wanna date me for movie????

Tabemono mo nomimono not-needed.

Today:

1. Asogohan o tabemasendeshita.
2. Ranchi o tabemasendeshita.
3. Bangohan o tabemasuka?
Bangohan o tabemasen.

All I need is sleep. Food? Nar, not now.

**Sleeping mode in 5-min time. Do not disturb**

CMhb and I bought Di, the attached technologist from Jogjakarta to where she lived for the 2 weeks in Singapore from our lab on Monday. It’s been a very long time since I last went Chinatown.

Dinner at Smith Street. Nothing too special to talk about it though.

It’s when the time back we spotted this shop selling CD-R (as what the boss says). Oh music la of course.

CMhb choose this album for me since she think most of the songs are nice. Oh well the songs by the ORIGINAL artistes are nice. Know why? It’s until just now when I listen to THE CD, I realized that both of us kena cheated already.

There is this phrase at the back of the album which none of us notices:
All tracks are re-recorded by various artistes in digital studios. All rights of the manufacturer of the…… and blah blah blah.

But it was THIS small. Oh my god.

I knew we should bring our microscope lenses along. I just knew it. Damn.

Unfair.

I almost forgot to mention what I heard yesterday during our dinner meet-up.

SP’s gonna fire all the lab-tech!

Reason? So to have out-source and then can cut cost.

That’s the most unreasonable reason I ever heard. To think people like Big Sister Shen and Little Fen and Leaf Song actually contribute so much during their lab-moving from Workshop 2 to the new lab. Not to mention Big Sister Shen was in her 6 (or 7??) months pregnancy then.

Feel so not fair for them.

And I guess there ain’t any other things that make us feel missing SP then? (Ever since the fishball noodle in FC1 is closed.)
Urgh.

“It’s always nice to see an old friend, especially one that you have not seen for a long while.”

I’m glad it still holds true. At least for tonight’s meet-up.
ALfy, Lts, KTyy, Chh, and Llc.
Thanks for the night. =) It was lovely.

Sidetrack:
I hope the n.y.d.c’s cute guy doesn’t really freaked out with ALfy’s attitude over the desert? It’s not against him anyway. It’s against that kitchen staff.
And as I always said, all Alan are complete jerk (Attention: It spells A-L-A-N).
Oh did I mention the name of that kitchen staff is Alan as well? ;)

Burst!!!

It’s my first G-banding after like.. 1 week never do G-banding? And surprisingly enough all the bands are out in the first slide of all the 3 different cases I did today. I thought today is just my day and I’m gonna finish G-banding before 12pm. Three cases you know! Break record already.

Too early to be happy.

One of the pipes from upstairs burst out without any warnings. And worst still, the pipes which burst, is a sewage pipe. (Try imagine the smell and colour and the "yuck-ness" I felt)

Chaos, chaos, chaos.

Can anyone imagine the stench inside the 3 connected labs?

And then all the chaos and “kelang-kabut” and cleaning up (oh well and the stench and phone-calling and listen to people’s explanation).

And so, I only finished my G-banding at 2.30pm.

Record-breaking indeed. But what a bad one. =( Hmph. So not my day.

This afternoon’s conversation with CMhb reminds me of JTks.

I have to admit I feel so damn touched when he made his trip back to chalet at Downtown East to pick my jacket up – yes, I left it there without I knowing it. I was too careless I have to say. It just happens too often.

But, he went back to the chalet and took it back for me.

It means nothing of course but silly enough I feel very touched even until now (not to mention that THAT particular jacket means a lot to me). Okay, I’m kindda silly.

He’s a nice guy I have to say.

I wonder how is his training over the other side of Asia. Hope things are doing great for him.
Take care, JTks.

Um. Tomorrow. Monday. Working Day. Boring Day?

Yeah. Monday. Working day.
Boring day?

Guess it depends on my mood tomorrow the first moment when I wake up.


Sidetrack:
Discovered this blog by celeb Yi Nengjing (Yes, Harlem's wife) http://blog.sina.com.cn/m/yinengjing
A sentimental one. Guess not much celeb has such a good writing skill.
Oh it's in Chinese yea. Chinese traditional somemore. ;)

不可以乱的

对呵，我绝对同意。我们的心情是不可以乱的。乱了就不整齐了。不整齐就不美观了。不美观灰尘就来了。灰尘来了我们就不快乐了。所以呵，绝对不可以让心情乱的。

Finally

It's Saturday finally. It's 6th May finally. It's THE POLING DAY finally.

Frankly I am very sick of all the news and braggingscomments and personal backgrounds and etc etc about this whole election thing.

I'm glad it's gonna over soon. And hopefully soon enough the papers would back to their old-selves in which is not the-whole-stack-of-paper-is-about-poling thing.

Friday. =)

As the end of the week approaches, footsteps to work get lighter.
And I feel as though I am hopping my way, to work and the weekend.

I hope I don't have to OT too much today.

Somehow, I have survived these few months of no-life life with just work and nothing else. Life is getting kindda boring for me. I have absolutely no motivation for anything but hiatus now.

TPM?
OT?

Total bollocks. I don’t care about them at the moment. I just wanna go for that freaking vacation again. I love to go back to Tioman or Redang and snorkel all day long, doing nothing, thinking of nothing, worrying about nothing.

No bad relationships. No silly commitments. No worsening friendships.
No criticising, no thinking, absolute bliss and nothing else.

The ex-Micro guy

Way back home from Orchard I bumped into ‘Christopher’ the Micro ex-Micro guy. We never really talked to each other before and am not very sure if I got the name right. That explains the inverted comma.

Oh he quit his job being as someone who works in Microbiology lab.
(hmm working in Microbiology lab hence the "Micro-guy" or "Micro-girl". Duh out of sudden I'm glad that I'm in Special Haematology section and "Haem-girl" is a bit too mouthful I guess, and so it's not commonly used. But even if it is, it still sounds more hygiene I suppose?)

Back to Mr. Ex-Micro, he has an okay personality which is fine with me. But one thing, I really can’t stand his voice.
It’s far too girly and ‘daey’. Sorry there is no way I can imitate that.

Happy rotting at home Christopher.

My body's internal clock is damn screwed. My suprachiasmatic nucleus in the hypothalamus must be really confused this time round. I can’t fall asleep in the night time and I can’t wake up on time in the day time. Tried going to bed earlier than usual but I would end up lying there for a couple of hours listening to my mp3s. Complete waste of time yeah, I might as well keep myself occupied till I get really tired before hitting the sack so that I would be out within minutes right. Or maybe a even simpler solution of moving somewhere which will make up the appropriate time difference of 4 hours, how bout Iraq or Afghanistan. Maybe it’s my body's natural inclination to be an night owl and I enjoy the way it is too, the peace of the night and simply tuning out the world on my way to work. Duh just for the sake of next next week. I shall try to get it turned around within this 2 weeks and have it back in sync with time. ;] Soon.

飞机的梦想

飞机，是小鸟的影子。小鸟是很轻松很自由的。想起飞机就觉得它的生活太呆板。它要载客载货物。飞机不自由。它被飞机师控制着。乘客要去的地方就是他休息的地方。飞机的梦想是做一只小鸟。我猜。

I'll be more diligent.

Yes I will.
No more no-updates for a whole month.

I am Beautiful.

"Beautiful"

from www.azlyrics.com

[Spoken]Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful

Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe

Now and then, I get insecure

From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring me down

So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious

So consumed in all your doom

Trying hard to fill the emptiness

The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone

Is that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring you down

You are beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring you down

Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do

(no matter what we do)

No matter what we say

(no matter what we say)

We're the song inside the tune

Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go

(everywhere we go)

The sun will always shine

(sun will always shine)

And tomorrow we might wake on the other side

All the other times

We are beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring us down

We are beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring us down

Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today

I am smart. I am good. I am confident. I am optimistic. I am introspective.
I am beautiful.

Work @ Sunday.

Oh well I need to persuade myself that no big deal having need to work on Sunday with a 5-workday job. Maybe sometimes those standby money is NOT just an add-on to your pathetic amount of salary. THIS is why I guess.

I realised I have not been update for like 20 over days. *feeling guilty* Thoughts running through my head always at the most inappropriate time, as I've already announced, my com is dead.

Couple of things has begin in my life =) New chapter! Yeah Yeah!! First I took Japanese Language course (finally). Then things getting more and more ai4 mei4 between me and this guy K (ok no name mention). And god know how I hate this kind of situation. Then DLee and I actually have this silly flower exchange on V-day itself. It's kindda silly yet heart-warming. I guess these are some of the major one I can recall. Not to mention everyday have to come down to work, la.

Incubation time is almost up and guess engine need to start cracking.
Gah!! Stupid lehz need to work today.
K called me yesterday and asked if it's alright to meet up today. It's just too bad I have to work. Aiiz fate.

Think another way, I won't have Monday blue tomorrow! ;)

Uh. The second month already.

I seriously think that I need to take a break from the seriousness that has prevailed over the past couple of days. At work place of course. I guess home has nothing too much for me to worry, or feel like escape from. I'm a very 'home' person. I miss my family already even though we are just of distance of Tebrau Strait.

Happy new year.

I feel like I'm living in a plantation. So close to nature. If you close your eyes, you can just nearly imagine that. The overwhelming aroma of the pots of exotic flowers scattered around the house (that will normally wither by the 4th day of new year). And it's simply too much for my olfactory epithelium. The point is even if you like all the spices (cinnamon, saffron, vanilla, star anise, coriander etc.), you can't add all of them in your soup. And it happens every chinese new year. Happy new year.

Wahahah

This is sooOOOOOoooo funny. Okie-la probably not too funny.



It strucks me that somehow people like to ask stupid question.
And to revenge, throw back stupid answer. ;)
Ok ok.. the answer of x is 5 according to the Pythagorean Theorem. *grin* I know I'm a very good student most of the time for being return everything I learned, to the respective teacher or lecturer. But I just still remember this. Hmm... Just let me be wick for this one time.

Grrr.... Commie com spoilt

My com is spoilt. It's dead. The mother-board die on me. Not only that, for the next few days all the electrical appliances (cordless phone, tv, etc..)in my room got spoilt one by one. This is so furious.

Although TS strongly recommend that i should just throw away my current com or just give it to the galang guni man during the give-away day, I just can't bring myself to do it. simply no extra money to anyhow change. Ok maybe I'll try to save some money to have it repair I guess?

For time being, it can happily become one of the decorations in my room without need to work too much. Good for you commie com! And damn your owner will be bore to death during the weekend of she doesn't have any date then.

I'm a genius!!

I was reading the entry some days ago in which I was in the mood of "Oh long weekend is sOoOoOo nice".
And I realise I'm gonna work on 7th January, Saturday when I was flipping through my organiser.

And I will get day-off on 9th, the subsequent Monday. And 10th itself is Hari Raya Haji. That means for that week I would have 3 days off from 8th to 10th.

Oh my god I'm a genius. And I swear that I didn't think about that when Miss Ma asked me about the schedule for January.

I'm so proud of myself. ;)

Media power.

The papers on last week reported on the traffic situation at Causeway. Bad. And so as the news on TV. Oh so everybody thought that for the long weekend it's gonna be so heavy traffic travel, whether to or fro, JB. Okie, Malaysia.

By the way, I glanced through this signboard somewhere at the underpass of JB after the Malaysia checkpoint. (Sorry no picture.) And it says:
"Selamat datang ke Bandaraya Sejahtera"

Correct me if I'm wrong. But does it mean "Welcome to the City of Peace"?

Oh or is it suppose to be some slogan N years back?

Anyway, the media reported about the traffic situition at the Causeway and everyone so paranoid about that. But as a matter of fact it was so clear you don't believe it.

And here am I back to Singapore at this time of 3.15pm not knowing what the hell I'm doing here, back to here so damn early.

I should have eat some "zhi bao ji" before I come back.

un-Chrismassy mood

I have to admit that compare to previous years I'm not really in Chrismassy mood (anymore) 'coz I'm not a Christian. Ok previously I was 'coz Christmas in Singapore is so different. People take it so seriously whether christian or non-christian.

But for this year all I care is the long weekend.

*Wick smile*

I'm sorry Santa please forgive me. Hahaha is there really Santa?

WTF?

Enough is enough.

I really had enough with those people-- When you ask for their opinion, they said "Anything", but they DON'T really mean that.

What they really mean is "Anything, like... [insert personal preference here]"

Except they omitted the last part.

Hello. People can't read your mind. And most people ain't so free to actually go and guess what's on your mind. It's not like I'm having a crush on you ok?!

Just say out what is really on your mind when people asked. They won't feel offend. In fact, they will feel so glad you don't believe it.

And this is it. No more outing organize by me. Thank you everyone.

Quite long time never update. Not busy lar. Just being lazy. =D I like being lazy. and carefree. It feels nice.

I'm now like my job more. Yeah previously not that like this job. But somehow or rather now can adapt more. And to accept what people always say: FATE. Erm it's the the nature of job I'm handling. More info and insider-story? Contact me personally. Hehee.

Think that's for today. I'm a bit worry that my colleagues will see this.

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday horz ~Jie. Miss ya*